Before Pregnancy 

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I never thought I would ever become pregnant. I was diagnosed with PCOS at around 22 and I’ve been through a lot trying to regulate my hormones. I tried many remedies but it was later that I settled on a few natural alternatives that worked better for me. I am a very spiritual person and I trusted my body and my entire being to the Heavenly Father who created me. Becoming pregnant was important to me but also being pregnant when God says it was his timing was more important to me. Even thou I wanted things to go the way God intend for it to play out in my life, I am still human and often find myself watching my biological clock as I get closer to 30 and without a child. I often fussed and stocked up on pregnancy test and ovulation kits to time everything to ensure the eggs are ready to be fertilized. And regardless of my timing, natural remedies used to deal with the things that come with a PCOS diagnosis I couldn’t get pregnant. I worked on weight loss but never seemed to be able to get below 180 lbs, instead it felt like the more I focused on weightloss the heavier I got. I was so disappointed each time I checked the pregnancy test and it showed negative, I was devastated. I was so devastated it felt as if I was hit by a emotional truck. Time went by and I started to go back to my faith. In the Bible it talks about being anxious for nothing but through prayer and supplication make your request be made known to God. This is my all time favorite scripture. And time to time I am reminded of how powerful prayer and trust in God is. I stayed hooked on the human aspects of why I wasn’t pregnant, I started watching my biological clock nothing worked, in fact things got so bad to the point I experienced what many would call a phantom pregnancy (false pregnancy). That didn’t stop me from being obsessed with becoming pregnant. 2 years later I found myself doing the same things, timing everything and going to work. But once again nothing worked, I also was more anxious than I was faithful in prayer to God with faith. I tried about three months back to back without any success and at this point I was 185 lbs. I thought for sure at this point I will need to loose weight in order to get pregnant. I gave up trying  after the third month back to back and I surrendered to God. I decided to trust him and I started accepting that if God doesn’t intend for me to have children of my own then I will just use this time to focus on me, my career, and when the time is right I would adopt if that was Gods plan for me. I stopped obsessing about my age and biological clock, I prayed my anxieties about getting older without a child away and started to focus only for the fourth month of not obsessing about pregnancy or biological clock or anything to start feeling weird which was unusual for me. I tracked my periods and noticed I was late, but that wasn’t overly surprising for me since I do have a history of going months without my period. What really got me was the weird taste in my mouth, abs the tender breast that was longer lasting than when I typically get my periods. I decided I would wait for the heck of it, and not become obsessed about pregnancy again I instead prayed and trusted God. On the sixth day of not having my period I decided to Take a pregnancy test and wallah!!! I was preggo!!! Who could it be but God. I was happy but not overly excited I decided I wanted to have it confirmed by the doctor so I did a confirmation appointment in which it was confirmed… Preggo. 

The moral of this story is if you are spiritual in any form and is hoping for a miracle of some sort, please consider praying and improving your faith. As humans I can attest that it’s not always easy to stay prayerful or faithful, but it is essential to our success as living beings. 

Now as I begin my journey into motherhood I would like to take you on this trip as we navigate the ins and outs of motherhood, and keep each other motivated. Consider subscribing to my newsletter to stay updated when I post new contents. 

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